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w6, SATURDAY

[fried]

[ he is in the kitchen tonight, kneading at his eyes with the heels of his palms... hello kaworu. ]

[peripheries]

[Just sneezing and looking defeated as he scrolls through cat pics on his phone looking upset. Which is the vibe. ]

[fried]

[ a slow exhale, and then: ]

You should take those allergy pills that Taair had, you know.

[peripheries]

I know. I didn't think about it in my haste and then...

[He had just wanted to try and help. But yes, Taair usually looks after him... now he's just dealing with the last of the aftermath.]

[fried]

[ he glances up in his direction. ]

... Are you alright otherwise? How are you handling all of this? [ you should apologize for trying to kill him, jiaoqiu. ]

[peripheries]

I didn't know either that well but I'll miss them.

[Thoughts of looking at charts with Uruha and a smile. Hands learning to play a game with Siffrin that he didn't understand but was happy to learn.

He's tired and overwhelmed and afraid. Not for himself but everyone else.]

[fried]

They'll be back soon.

[ which is cold comfort, because they still have to die, but. ]

It is the best way to navigate through this. Knowing that they'll be back soon.

[peripheries]

I know. But I hate having to miss them.

[he's so young and his feelings are so big and hard to control.]

[fried]

It is unfortunately part of being human.

[ ... ]

Which you seem to have experienced in full, these last few weeks.

[peripheries]

Yes.

I'm more human than I was raised to believe I was. I'd like to think in the end, it's for the best.

[fried]

I agree with you.

[ a little smile. ]

Being human is a messy and somewhat terrible experience, but I've found the good moments often outweigh the bad, despite everything. I'm glad that you think it's for the best.

[peripheries]

I hope so.

[He inhales. There's something to be said and he can't hold himself back.]

I am sorry I hurt you.

[fried]

Ah...

[ a beat, and he smiles, small and soft. ]

I appreciate the apology, but - I feel as though I should apologize for hurting you. [ ... ] You were not in your right mind. I'm very sorry to know that it was the only thing either of us had left to resort to.